Apathetic Love

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE

                                             now that I'm with you.

I'll swim across the infinitely distant

galaxies. I'll inhale this planet.

I'll crush the sun with my fist.

                                 Nothing can stop me.

                        Nothing will stop me.

I just don't care.

I'll wade through the acrimonious magma of persecution

and fight and conquer armies of guilt.

                                      But most of all

                       With you,

I can protect me

from me.

I'm glad that I don't care anymore

                             Because if I did,

                              I'd allow me to

                                                      Suppress myself

abuse myself

                                   strangle myself-

                                                                                        Let me emerse myself

In the sulfuric acid of ATROPHY.

And allow myself to

deteriorate into a

                                                   skeleton of Sin.

You,

you take me,

                  and get in the way

You let me suppress you

                                 abuse you

                                            strangle you

and let me force you into that

VAT of ACID

You disintegrate

you take it all

While I watch and

"me"

continues to

SUBMERGE YOU

...but I realize,

I KNOW that 

you love me

Transcendently

                   Infinitely

                                Endlessly

                                    so I don't care about me anymore.

                                                                                               But even as

                                     you suffer through all of my

onslaughts of evil –

                                             You're there for me

                                           You care for me

                             so I care for you

and I

            don't 

                          care

                                                  about

me.